Dreams ain't Bullshit, Sweeties.

Dreams do come true!!! I'm going to go all fangirl for a moment, so if you'll excuse me. 

So I haven't been seeing CD for the last few days, and I was starting to miss him. Then yesterday I was like wondering, if I could just dream of his face once, I'd be happy enough and can go for another week without him. Then this morning in the van, I suddenly remembered last night's dream. There was a maze-like shopping mall, and then I was running after a classmate of his, and suddenly there he was, just outside of the mall. 

 

Today we had a PMR speech during the junior's recess hour. I saw him. :D 

 

Lol, this is the first time that I actually feel happy about seeing him again. Don't any of you dare link this post to him, or I'll hunt you down and pull out your organs. FRESH. 

 

So anyway, I browsed through a little more of the Dream Dictionary of frequent stuff I dream about... school. 

 

To dream that you are in school indicates that you sill harbor unsettled feelings and emotions about your youth. You may feel insufficient and unable to perform a task to the best of your ability. You may be experiencing some sort of divine revelation.

If you are still in school and you dream about school, then this can simply be a reflection of your experiences. In addition, a dream that takes place in school may represent morals that you have been taught throughout your life.

High school represents a turning point in life. It is a time when one meets lifetime friends, commits silly mistakes, and shared hopes and dreams. A mixture of emotions, expectations, and memories gushes out from the thought of high school.

To dream about high school refers to lessons learned and preparations made for life.

Dreaming of high school likewise brings to mind your parents' expectations from you. To fail high school indicates doubt in your abilities or accomplishments in your life, based on previous failure or insecurities you had in high school.

To dream that you have a crush on somebody mirrors the same fondness and physical attraction you have for a particular person in your waking life. To get a glimpse of your crush in your dream suggests your preoccupation and lingering thoughts about him/her. You will often dream of your crush if you thought of him/her or experienced a significant encounter with that person during the day.

To dream that your crush does not harbor mutual feelings for you indicates that you are unaware of how your crush actually feels about you. You are unsure if your crush likes you or not.

Okay, so the last two paragraphs are about crushes. But I never had a dream similar to the last paragraph though; in fact it's the opposite. Shopping mall again, with CD dragging me everywhere and stuff, lmao. I'm not gonna say any more for now, and it's like, 15 minutes to midnight. Haha. CIAO.

Size 4 and 14

I have no idea why size 4s are so attractive. They're skinny as sticks. If anyone had sex with them, they'd just snap in two. I'm talking about this because ever since someone pointed it out a year or so ago, there are just far too many size 4 models shown on the cover of every magazine. It's always single digit. There was even a point where the people actually started requesting for models with a little more meat and curves, and the magazine actually are willing to oblige to them. Well, that was when I first learned that size doesn't matter, but anyway.

 

I was bored just now and started Googling random stuff, and I compared size 4 to size 14. I'm not being self-pitying, since I'm a size 12 or 14 myself, but plus size models look much better compared to the skinny peeps. 

 

And I also found this model Emme Aronson, who has a beautiful confidence I'm starting to develop since a while ago after reading that article which link I had posted up here. Now I have another article to share about Emme, and it's really awesome. 

 

About that 'confidence' thing. It's not much really. All I have to do is stop worrying how fat I am, how should I choose my food and how people think of me. Look here, I have plenty of friends in high school, and they didn't stop talking to me just because I'm a little bigger than them. Sure, they tease me about my weight once in a while, but it wasn't that serious. 

 

I started eating without worrying, although things had changed a little. Mom stopped refilling the fridge with soft drinks because dad and I kept devouring them (muahaha!!!). Now the fridge is pretty much empty save for the occasional cake and ice-cream, which most of them I don't like because of their flavors. There's also chocolates on the dining table, but hey, a girl's gotta change her appetite once in a while, right? I swear, the food supply in my house is simply dull. 

 

So yeah, I'm going to do something about my fridge supply. And keep on being a fat but optimistic gal. :D

Weirdest Joe Dream

After a fucking stupid and outrageous dream last night, I decided that this cannot wait. I must find out what they mean, and what Saomozenth is trying to tell me. I am now typing my latest dream out while searching online Dream Dictionaries what my two recent dreams mean. First I'll solve Joe's loan. 
 

Lending - to dream that you are lending money signifies your responsibilities to those around you. Alternatively, it highlights the importance of your support system.

 

Dream sequence from last night. 

 

Before the crystal-clear scenes, I remember dancing with a skinny girl in my bedroom, running away from some knight or husband with my role as Rapunzel, and suddenly I turned into the wife of an Archbishop that was fated to bring the kingdom down, even though all I saw was a shopping mall. AGAIN.

 

So there were a few friends and Joe again, and I don’t know why, but he was feigning death in front of the cashier in a store selling fake flowers. That scene somehow involved another girl who was openly flirting with him, and somehow I got dragged into their shenanigans. I remember Joe kissing someone or being kissed by that said someone.

 

Next scene, which wasn’t far from the previous one, we (a bunch of other friends included. I think I saw Kitty) were in some local grocery store chatting up when suddenly we were attacked. There were people that looked like shark loans about to come in, but I shut the doors in time, the kind that is chain-like and slides sideways. But they used their machetes and broke in anyway, so my friends started to battle with them. I was panicking, and I didn’t know what to do. Suddenly, there was an explosion caused by the enemy (or a friend that I think betrayed us), and I fainted or something.

 

Then I woke up in enemy ground, but not in jail or anything, it’s just like any other bedroom, no locks, no bars. In fact, it looked like it could be a perfect picture of lomography. Suddenly, Joe dragged me out of there, and when people were approaching, he told me to kiss him on the cheek (BLEK). I CAN’T believe I did it. My lips felt like acid when I did that. I can still feel it right now Dx!!! But anyway, after that he took me downstairs to another room, and locked the door. I heard people whispering as they walked past, and I daren’t move or they’ll hear me. I think Joe went to the toilet or something after that, and suddenly a child was calling out for me, and I just stared at the door in horror.

 

The door started to close in on me in my vision, and I think I was about to burst into tears…WHEN I woke up to my alarm, I was like, traumatized, or something similar of the sort. 

 

Solving the riddles of this dream. 

 

Chase - To dream that you are being chased indicates that you are steering clear of a circumstance that you feel cannot be overcome. This is generally a metaphor for a kind of insecurity.  
  

Mall - To dream that you are at the mall implies that you are trying to create a favorable impression for somebody. The mall is also represents that you covet and the desire to acquire what your peers own. 

 

Store - To dream of a grocery or convenience store implies that you are feeling great pressure and stress with your personal thoughts and decisions. It may also mean that you are searching for alternative paths and choices.

 

Attack - To dream that you are being attacked indicates that someone is criticizing your integrity, and you feel that you must stand up and preserve your good reputation. Some issue in your life is overwhelming you and you feel powerless to stop it. Perhaps you are being challenged with a very extreme and drastic alteration and you are being forced to make a hard decision.

  

Battle - A dream in which you see or participate in a battle is a sign that you are working too hard. You should take some time off. It's also an indication of a clash between your levelheaded thoughts and impetuous acts. The battle can also indicate sexuality, and that you are too aroused or might be restraining your desires.

 

Explosions - To dream about explosions represents a loss or something negative in business. You could also be burying feelings, especially deep anger, that should be dealt with before they destroy aspects of your life.

 

Rescue - To dream that you are being rescued or you are rescuing others signifies an effort to express feelings which you previously suppressed. You are exerting effort in the expression of these neglected emotions.

 

Kiss - If you are kissing someone on the cheek or someone is kissing you on the cheek, then it signifies admiration, courtesy, reverence, friendship or respect.

 

Friend - To dream about your childhood friend indicates that you will stumble back into behaviors from an early and more carefree time. You could be feeling too much pressure and wishing to go back to a time when things were easier. Think about how you got along with this friend, the dynamics of the friendship, and what you learned through that friendship. This dream may also be indicating that you are acting immaturely.

 

Corner - To dream that you are in a corner indicates that you feel unable to manage the different aspects of your life. You are confused and unsure of what to do next. Perhaps you feel as if you have no options or alternatives. 

 

Closed - To dream that a door is closed symbolizes a chance or proposition that you have allowed to pass by. It can also imply fantasies or hidden thoughts regarding sex. To dream that the store is closed suggests that you are unable or unwilling to accept other opinions or perspectives. You need to be more open-minded rather. It can also symbolize shortcomings or failures.

...So far I can't merge all these info together and make a decision what the Gods are trying to tell me. 

10 dollars redemption?

A ten-dollar note was pushed into my sight on the counter at a supermarket. Confused, I lifted my head to see him trying to hide his expression through his bangs. Taking the note, I tried to return it to him. 

 

'Joe, I don't need this. Hey Joe, Joe!'  

 

He still won’t look up. 

 

‘Joe.’ 

 

I daren’t touch him. He looked guilty of something. 

 

Suddenly, I felt CD coming. 

 

And that was one part of the dream I find funny from last night. I remember somewhen before this scene I loaned ten bucks to Joe, then he returned immediately, and this one would make double the amount. And only a little before the extra loan, I was outside the supermarket (in a shopping mall) sitting alone at a table of some cafe or bakery, and I saw CD and his friends hanging out at an open bar just at the opposite, or something of the like. I didn't want to feel awkward, so I went into the supermarket to release some tension. Who knew that guy would leave the midgets and start following me. Then I ran into Joe. 

 

I suddenly sense deja vu, with the part where Joe is hiding from me with that pile of grass he'd call his hair. Maybe I had the same dream or something. Please, let this be a one-time thing. This dream is like a message that the reason Joe is not talking to me is because he feels guilty and owes me something. =A=''' Well, that's pretty much bullshit. 

 

Alright, hope nothing similar of this shit happens in school today. Nini out to get her papers marked. GAWD. 

Dolce Farmiente before Doom comes

So not looking forward to tomorrow. All my subjects are shit. I may not be a fortune teller, but I can handle my own predictions for my own life. 

  

I watched Rio today through DVD. It was damn awesome, and I kept repeating my favorite scenes after that, like the part where the birds were partying like crazy and stuff, haha. Damn, I think I have a new addiction I never thought I'd have. BIRDS. And my fantasy of going to Brazil. I am so getting rich once I get out of college and have a piece of my life in that country. 

...I have nothing much to say actually. 

 

Alright, I'll post some shitty one-shot fiction later or something, since I'm enjoying my boredom now. 
  

Oh, and an advice from the movie 'Eat Pray Love.' 

 

Dolce Farmiente... the sweetness of doing nothing. 

Zoo Exhibits in De Library

I forgot to mention this yesterday, but this incident was hilarious.

On the second last day of exams, nobody was really in the mood to study for Math, so we just slouched around in the library. But then, the kindergartens had to come to the library for some reason, so the librarian aunty asked us high schoolers to get into the studying room on the other corner of the library so the kiddies could have their space. So we did as told. 

But when they came, they were staring at us through the window like this was a zoo and we're the animals. Then some guy from Jr3A suddenly came into my view and said, 'Don't worry. I got this covered.' 

 

We went towards the window, and made an Egyptian Dance. 

 

LMAO, that really gave those kids a show xD!!! 

 

Okay, so finally we finished the last paper on our trials. Math was okay, and I nearly didn't make it, but I made a grave mistake on one of those damned questions that would cost me 4 FREAKING MARKS. Yes, to me it's a big deal. Now shaddup. 

 

Okay, now I know what to draw. I might draw SeeU or French-Ass for Kitty, but of course, it depends on my laziness tomorrow. Haha, so much Vocaloid xD~

 

So I just sketched a cool Daemon (from fiction Facade) out on my sketchpad. When I say sketch, it includes pencil shading. And it also means HELL NO, I ain't gonna ink this thing cause I spent too much time pencil-shading this shit already. So Imma keep it at that. And yeah, I got lazy at the wings part. Or more like I softly sketched the base in the background and left it at that. Then I wrote on the wings saying my mood was ruined and I'm just plain lazy. 

 

I think I'll draw Inugo's daughter, Hsane next in my sketchbook. I gotta change her hair and fix her tastes of fashion. In short, she's your average bitchy, rebellious and whiny teenager. What makes her stand out is that she's quite the coward, and is really uncomfortable about her father being an assassin. Yeah, she's pretty much a sickly bitch. Man, if my dad were an assassin, I'd have begged him to be my apprentice or something, haha. 

 

Alright, now off to drawing now. Dunno about my plans tomorrow though. I'll just go with the flow when the time comes xP. Peace!

Drawing "Last Night Good Night" On The Wall

Kitty said if I could pull this off she'd come over and see it for herself. 

  

AS IF. Look at all the stuff they had to do! Get newspapers, wear masks (I like it though xD), take a hell lot of paint, GAH. Hell no I won't do that. 

 

Unless of course, I'm super uber bored in the holidays, which will be unlikely, because I'll be spending nearly half of that time touring Beijing!!! Oh, and those plans I mentioned in the last post too. Gotta spend my last days as junior wisely, now. Haha. 

 

I think I'll try working on another A4 drawing now, this time something to do with a special landscape. Anyone inspire me now. I was thinking of hot air balloons, but that failed. I tried that a minute ago. 

 

Imma eat Korean food later!!! Yeah!

blargh one random random

3:54am. The exact same time I woke up yesterday morning. 

 

AND this morning too. 
  

But whatev, all that shit is over. Maths should be a piece of cake if I don't mess it up and did the graphs correctly. Haha, now I'm currently searching for random songs from a few years ago and also some lyrics. I have this habit of making songs into different genres whenever I feel like it, usually metal to R&B (lol, I know, impossible). Currently trying to imagine Best of You by Foo Fighters, Nini's converted version. If I haven't gave up on piano half my lifetime ago I would have played it out and post it up here or something of the like :D. But nah, when I look at others reading their music theory book like they were psyched or something, I'm glad I did. xD
 

Alright, so today I've been sleeping the whole afternoon through, so it's not much going on at my grandma's house. 

 

Then when I came onto Facebook, two of my friends were commenting what to do after the big exams, and I have some ideas already, but the thing is, I don't want to be the host Dx!!! It's so annoying, I tell you, I hate leading. 

 

Anyway, what I want to do is play in a water park, an amusement park, maybe try out some awesome outdoor games like paintball, archery and horse-riding (I'd like to rip the guts out of the guide that tucks on the reins before I get the horse all to myself, haha). Oh, and pancakes! It can't be complete without pancakes! Or we could just go on a movie marathon at a sleepover and do shit. Of course, I would continue on most of my previously discontinued projects, like the Landscapes Project and Haloville Cards (but I think I'd just throw the old ones away and start anew, because my old style is just simply UGLEH Dx). 

 

Just watched a Best of You cover, acoustic and in country genre. It's good, and a little close to my style. I think I'll post it up if I feel like it :P. 

 

Alright, now off to read some retarded comic and arrange some music and drawings. :D 

Middle-of-Exams Day.

FUCK. SHIT. WHAT THE HELL? DIE. SCREWED. 

 

Ah, first thought of the day. Don't you just love random quotes? Once again, I woke up late. THREE HOURS LATE this time. I wasted three fucking hours sleeping. Thank Saomozenth it's chinese geography today, or I'm going into my twice-a-year PMS mood (you better count yourself lucky for not getting to see my emo wrath). 
 
Okay, the objective sheet wasn't that hard, but I think I'm screwed on the subjective part. I don't I'll ever get an A on ANYTHING. God, why do I keep forgetting that the trials' marks will be recorded in our school report? I am sooooooooo dead. 
 
So tomorrow is Merge Science!!! I have no idea how you translate 普科 to English, but since it's all three sciences merged into one, I guess Merge Science good enough (Well, at least it's logical). 
 
I have been studying Chemi for three days straight instead of a proper subject, and I still haven't finished taking notes because I was taking my sweet time writing it. I think I'm going to take the midnight train tonight to Hell and ask the Devil for some advice to cheat on my exams tactics to study. Yeah. 
 
At least I didn't watch any HK drama today (because I panic-screamed at Ivan not to watch it, haha. We kept acting out our own drama instead while speaking Cantonese, LMAO).
 
Okay, after I catch up with some comic updates I'm off. Bye.

Marc Anthony

If you don't know who is Mark Anthony, perhaps a few links to his old songs would refresh your mind a little. I only did this research a few minutes ago, and I have to say... HIS NEW LOOK IS DRIVING ME NUTS! XDXDXD!!! Haha, I'm so dug into this kind of shit. I can't believe I'm saying the older version of a man is better, haha. But then again, I had the same reaction when I was browsing through Enrique Iglesias' old videos as well. Haha. 

Okay, lyrics and links. 
 

Girl my body don't lie
I'm outta my mind
Let it rain over me
I'm rising so high
Out of my mind
So let it rain over me

Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
 
Always a new million
Voli's the new vodka
Forty is the new 30
Baby you're a rockstar
Dale veterana, que tu sabe
Mas de la cuenta, no te hagas
Teach me or better yet,
Freak me baby, yes, yes
I'm freaky, i'mma make sure that your peach feels peachy baby
No bullshit rods, I like my women sexy classy sassy
Powerful yes, they love to get the middle, nasty ow
This ain't a game you'll see, you can put the blame on me
Dale munequita ahora ahi, and let it rain over me
 
Girl my body don't lie
I'm outta my mind
Let it rain over me
I'm rising so high
Out of my mind
So let it rain over me

Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
 
Always a new million
Always a new vodka Light is the new majority, ya tu sabe
Next step la casa blance
No hay carro, no vamo en balsa
Mami you know the drill, they will know what I got 'til they read the will
I ain't try, I ain't trying to keep it real
I'm trying to keep wealthy that's for real
Pero mira que tu estas buena, y mira que tu estas dura
Baby no me hables mas, y tiramelo mami chula
No games you'll see, you can put the blame on me
Dale munequita ahora ahi, and let it rain over me
 
Girl my body don't lie
I'm outta my mind
Let it rain over me
I'm rising so high
Out of my mind
So let it rain over me

Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
 
Mr worldwide, Marc Anthony, tu sabe
I was playing with her, she was playing with me
Next thing you know, we were playing with three
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
I was playing with her, she was playing with me
Next thing you know, we were playing with three
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Rain over me
 
Girl my body don't lie
I'm outta my mind
Let it rain over me
I'm rising so high
Out of my mind
So let it rain over me
 
Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me
Ay ay ay
Let it rain over me

Links to Mark Anthony's old songs (they're YouTube links, just in case you're wondering). 

You Sang To Me 1999. I Need To Know 1999. 


I know right, he looks so different! xD!!! Damn I LOVE him right now.

DIE. SCREWED.

Alright, I never knew waking up an hour late would make me feel so horrified. 
  

I set my alarm at a little before 3 last night just so I could have more time studying history this morning, but guess what? Like what you see in movies, I turned off the alarm saying '5 more minutes...' to myself. In the end I multiplyed that by 12, and I get a 60. My first thought when I saw the time on my phone (that's what I use for my alarm) was...
  

DIE. SCREWED. 

 

These two words have been best friends with my brain ever since yesterday, because I keep saying these two words before and after I get out of the exam fields. Apparently Charmaine and Hui Shan didn't know the other meaning of screw, and I have heard that Kitty had taught them it is similar to the word 'having sexual intercourse' aka 'fuck'. For your information, in teenage language, it also means you are going to go through hell, with a possible chance that you might not survive. In overall, it is equivalent to the phrase 'I'm DEAD.'
   

We're fifteen already. I can't believe they don't know that. I bet the western dudes know this kind of stuff ever since they're, what, ten? 

 

Anyway, I gotta go now. Car's coming in 20, and I gotta spray the plants to 'increase humidity of air'.  
 

14 hours later, 8pm 

 

DEAD. SCREWED. 

 
Yes, same old, same old. I'm sure I'll repeat this once tomorrow comes. It's geography, by the way. It can't be that bad...but then again, it's my school's trials we're talking about. Saomozenth have mercy. 
 
Okay, I forgot to type this out earlier this morning, I have bought a sheep that snores ten times louder than anyone you've ever heard snore. Okay, maybe not you, Kitty, the snoring didn't really shake the whole house down, haha. 
 
So this morning, I kinda forgot to bring my blue pencil to school, so I had to use the other red, uncomfortable one (the soft thingie at the handle is kinda breaking, and lol, I never notice they were opposite colors until now). Then when I started filling the objective questions, only did I realize I have like, less than 1cm of lead left. I kinda panicked in silence for a minute there, but in the end everything is fine, and I got the boredom to measure it much later, to find it was actually more than 1cm. 1.2 to be exact. 
 
So yes, I had to use a pen to draw to kill time in there. For the objective questioning sheet I had used a black pen and commented retardedly on every objective answer possible (no, retardedly is not a word when you add the -ly).  Then when the teacher gave us the subjective sheets, I worried about myself using too much black ink (I'm just like that, haha) so I spammed the sheet with blue pen instead. Then I ended up drawing nicey-nice Vocaloids :D. I like drawing SeeU, because I like drawing fluffy hair xD!!!
 
Then during our trip down 7 flights of stairs, it was pure sheer coincidence (my ass == but using that word seems less pure to me for some reason) that the juniors were about to go back to their classes after their own recess hour. Of course I saw it coming, but I wasn't expecting it today. CD as usual came back from his basketball routine. I thought he'd be using the lift, but noooooooooo, he just had to parade around with the other midgets don't he? (no offense, midgets, but you juniors ARE stereotyped so).
 
Oh, and there's this rule in our exam that we have to use, one page, ONE PAGE for each subjective question. I can't believe everyone forgot about it! Well, not everyone, but some people. I even heard almost everyone in Jr3I wrote all the answers in one page as well. SCREWED, I'd tell them. SCREWED. Haha. 
 
I can't believe I studied chemistry for the whole day today instead of geography after I got home. More fun, I guess. But I never touched physics ever since what, last week? I gotta rush tomorrow. As usual. Hope I don't get distracted by the drama my cousin's watching. AGAIN (yes, I fell for the awesome HK drama 读心侦探 again today, but I must say, the main character's sister is such a BITCH). 
 
So after Ivan went for piano class (wootz, he's gonna play the piano! xD!!!), I went downstairs to watch Astro. Since neither my grandfather nor my other cousin was watching it, and we didn't subscribe the cartoon package, I just settled for Hitz channel which just plays music videos repeatedly. I was about to continue studying when Bruno Mars made his appearance with 'The Lazy Song'. My brain was like, don't fall for it. Don't fall for it. DON'T FALL FOR IT. 
 
I fell for it. I dumped my textbooks aside, took my sketchbook instead and started to draw while watching the monkeys show their boxers. =________________=
 
Today is quite eventful, I must say. And I finally have the perfect noun for juniors. MIDGETS! Of course, I'm referring especially to the guys (props to you xD). And I decided to call my other 7-year-old cousin Jack (Ivan is that cousins' real name, I just wanted to name this one Jack because I'm just too lazy to type out chinese names xP). 
 
Okay, I'm done. Midgets. Jack. DIE. SCREW. 
 

DIE. 

 

Okay, okay, I'm out!!!

 
...
 
DIE.

Quote of the uh, Season

Alright, one last post for the weekend. I did mention in the past (I think) that I like listening to Daddy's lectures, and some of them really make sense. Mom even said I take over his uh, thoughts. 思想. Something like all those 法家，道家 kinds of stuff. So here's what I'm going to tell you guys. 

 

You can't wait for the mood to study. 

Therefore, I shall study. 

 

So Saomozenth, please bless me mercifully for the exams this week. Thank you.

Just wanted to share some awesome photos. xD

Before...

...AND AFTER. Ah, the wonders of Photoshop.

Some of my ONLY faves from Black and White, Oshawott and Dewott~

Clearly even Booboo is moar interested in drawing.

Cute Baby Bean from N months ago.

Been forever since I took another picture of myself. Dx!!!

Haha, told you I've been drawing! So how is it? It's AWESOME, isn't it? I tell you, I'm going to be a pro at this one day, MUAHAHA!!! Lawlz. xD

Okay, so today, I refrained from watching or reading any ghost stories (just so I could finally get some good sleep tonight =___=), and managed to cover a decent amount of History and some Geo today, and I finally managed to watch Sucker Punch, which is a great story to me. It's realistic, for once more than one of the main characters died, and I really love Babydoll in there. At first I wanted to make an OC that resembles her, a innocent-looking woman with destructive power. 

But wait, Keisha Peinette is already a perfect example. xD!!! Except that the innocent part had been destroyed by herself before she got all berserk-ish and stuff. Haha. 

Okay. Gotta go update Facebook now. 

Jeez, I keep posting on my blog these days. Must be stressing out from the trials. Dx!!! 

I Heart Fatties

For any fat women out there, 

sticks and stones can't hurt us, 

we're beautiful just the way we are. 

This essay is very inspiring for women like me. :D Clickey~

Okay, after reading a hell lot of countless ghost stories for the day, suddenly I got to that link and all that fear of ghosts killing me in dreams and haunted houses had gone, lol. Screw voodoo for now, Imma talk about the issue of being FAT. 

According to society's measures, I'm like, 10 kilos overweight, and I try ignoring that fact, or at least not let it get to me. I know a lot of people can't tell, they think I'm just chubby or at most 50 kilos when the fact is I'm close to 70. I don't know why, but that essay is helluva powerful, and I could brave myself to type this all out suddenly. 

I don't give a shit if you call me fat, because it is the truth you have to deal with, and I'm not gonna do anything about it! So fuck off. 

Fat is just a word. Normal people would find this adjective an insult, but I admire those who actually smile at that word as if it was a praise instead. If you Googled, you might actually find some models who are quite full of meat but at the same time beautiful. 

And besides, I eat because I'm bored and at home alone

(either that or mom's just busy running around ordering the maid, lmao xD). 

AND MOAR FACTS! My dress size is 12 or 14. On rare occasions I could wear M, but that only showed my boobs, which I don't really like whenever I'm depressed or just hating tighties. My shoe size kinda varies depends on the brand, but it's usually 7 or 8 (normal for an average actually =__=). And my trousers size is 30 because of my helluva huge ass (my cousin said that once, I swear, because I was in the way of his getting a hardware disk xD), otherwise I swore I could've fit into 28, because some of my 28-size pants are just simply loose with the elastic thingit, LOL. 

I sometimes like being fat because it fits my personality. All fat people are usually seen as cheerful and open and caring and don't give a shit about asses that are simply fat-racist. Well I aim to be one of them one day! Dx!!! 

Now I'm off to convert one of my male OCs metrosexual. And get fatter. xD

Of course, the must-do housework and the History revision comes much later... but who cares, thanks to that essay I'm all happy now xD!!!

Juniors, Voodoos and Funerals

Today is quite...eventful. 

Alright, before I type out the events, first of all I'd like to not-so-officially declare that I have completely stripped myself of the Pokemon obsession, because ever since Kitty had mentioned a scary Japanese ritual called Hide and Seek Alone, I have converted from a Pokemon Nerd to a Voodoo Doll Freak. I Googled a few links and found this blog that submits all kinds of Japanese stories. The ritual sounds eerie and exciting at the same time, I could've just done it with Kitty at another sleepover (when the time comes for me to...persuade her), but there are a few things I have to say about my house. 

You better read how the ritual goes before trying to understand my reasons. 

• My mom doesn't cook, and buying a kilo of rice seems like a waste.
• I don't want to stab any of my dolls, or re-stuff them either. Old as they may be, I can't be an awful master to them. 
• I don't have a bathtub. Magazines say showers help the environment moar.
• I don't want to put my parents in danger. 
• Open burning destroys the environment.  

But to make up for not being able to do the ritual, I started drawing voodoo dolls in my sketchbook. Everyone keeps saying it's creepy, while some say it's cute. I like love how my masterpiece turned out to be. xD!!!

And Michelie keeps asking me to photostat the whole lot of them. Lmao. But maybe some time later. MUCH later, cause that's possible. (I hate exams)

Alright, today we had KH class, and the teacher had rented us the Bengkel Masakan so we could cook whatever we want! Damn, I should've brought a camera this morning, it was quite fun. We boiled eggs, messed up the carbonara, spilled mayonnaise and quite a few more stuff. Another group actually made awesome-looking cheese pancakes! But sadly I didn't get to try any, because I just wanted to be back in class after so much cooking in there.T__T...

For the last two periods before school ends, we had to clean our classroom, and...here cometh the bad news... we had to move to 8th floor, and will remain there until October ends. (Well, happy Halloween =__=''' sarcasm noted)

See? I told you I would die! I didn't know it'd be by exhaustion! Dx!!! God gives damn crazy suicidal surprises. =3='''

Oh, and then there's the juniors. Gawd, they're AWFUL. They stole all our lovely food, they made a terrible mess out of the canteen, they invade our corridors during our class time, and I thought Soamozenth would be merciful and keep me away from these imbeciles. 

But noooooo, we just have to switch classrooms with them, and I bet they'll break something somehow to our original classrooms, and I won't forgive them when they do! And during their cleaning the 8th floor, the corridor was so packed it was like 清ing 考场 during exams, all at the same time. And I nearly tripped on someone's bag during my trip to the toilet with Michelie. GAH. 

And the trip down C Block after school was boring as HELL if it weren't for Charmaine and Hui Shan. I could die of boredom and walking as fast as my grandpa (father's side, if you know my family well) in the middle of those stairs. At those times I could've wished the stairs' ghost would just come out of the mirror, scare the fucking shit out of the juniors and make them RUN. 

And I got a mini glimpse of CD today. He looks like he's gonna eat me (as in predator-prey eat me) or something when he was looking from the van. (IDK, just felt like typing this boring old thing tonight). 

Then Aunt Christine is supposed to fetch a junior 2nd home today, but he keeps saying he doesn't want to come along, and Hao Ying and I were standing outside the car cursing him with all we got, lol, because he's delaying our time to go back home. 

And when Joe turned around in the front seat without his specs, I thought I was going to spit something out right there, like the plain pasta from KH class earlier this morning. How do you call that handsome? A friend of mine claimed she liked his eyes and that he looks better without glasses. I looked at said person with a weird WTF look. That conversation happened last year, I think. 

Anyway, back to him. I'd even prefer his sister to him ANYTIME. She has beautiful eyes. :D. Of course, we never talked =__='''. I feel rude doing this. 

Alright, moar bad news. 

My great-grandma died yesterday morning. 

I never got to talk to her. She's 90 plus years old and looks quite happy with life, even though I only saw her during weddings and such. And mom said in great-grandma's will, she wanted her funeral to be HUGE and full of red like it's CNY or something in the middle of September. 

Wish granted. We're going this Saturday. 

(Yes, the Johnny English is cancelled, but I feel like I had to pay my respects to a great-grandma I never properly talked to.)

It feels like a miniscule part of my life had dissolved into nothing when I heard the news, and I actually felt it. 

Now I'm planning my own funeral. This is 2011 version, who knows my interest would waver when I'm a senior next year? :D

I want the weather to be damp, something like the aftermath of a rain, because I hate dry weather. GAH. Anywhere is fine, as long as it's not noisy and out of the city. Best if it had grass around though. Everyone should be bare-footed, and run around like crazy. A huge feast would be great (a must in ALL funerals xD), with upbeat music. Someone there should give out the glowsticks for free!!! Because that's the highlight of my funeral xD!!! Candles are fine too, or anything of the like. I want my corpse to be burned openly (I don't care a shit of environment since I am already done with my life on Earth), then I dunno, maybe some bonfire dance or something. Or they could just stand there and tell me whatever shit they want. I'll be there, listening. 

 
Okay, that last part was cheesy. 

I think that's about it. Now I have to rush on studying for the JUEC trials. Hope I survive. 
 

:D~~~

P.S. About the blog that posts scary stuff? I wanted to read it so bad, but it's like, 10pm whenever I'm in the mood. Maybe some other time. xD Anyone care to join?

jINXed!!!

Finally, I finished on my Chinese Geography. Now I have to study on Chinese History, then rush on the three sciences (Bio, Chemi and Physics), then rush even moar on Chinese. Yes, I am going to DIE.

My Pokemon frenzy still isn't over, and now I'm drawing humanized versions of them. I also drew a bionic type of person today, and it's so goddamn beautiful. I think I might photostat that later and continue spreading that drawing. (Well sorry if I'm boasting, you know I need some help lifting my spirits now). 

And I'm going to watch Johnny English 2 this Saturday with my cousins. Yeah! A final time of fun before I drop into the deadly pit of exam papers and big, red FAILED marks. Hope I would hurry a little and finish studying my history by then. We Jr3s do have a day off on coming Friday after all. :D
 

Can someone teach me how to draw Garchomp, by the way? I can't seem to figure out his base and how his head works... =A=''' SOS here. I want to know because he's part of my team x3 ~


During last Saturday and Monday after school, I think God was being a busybody and eavesdropped on me. Before that it had been really hot for days, and I kept asking for a rain to come. I was with Janice that time on Sat, and guess what? 


It did. Heavier and heavier. 

Janice told me why the hell do I have to jinx it.  =________=


Monday, I was with Wern Shien as usual. Then I was like, 'Come out! It's not like there's-' ...


It rained. 


JESUS CHRIST RIRFJ4TI3490U84HV0RNV9442546()&033&^%%$DJKV?!?!?!

Noe Mooncakes ;A;

This year's 中秋节 I didn't get to play any lanterns! ;A;!!! Not even a single candle... Heck, not even a mooncake in sight for the celebration! All I did was study, study, study, then slack off quite often to draw some Pokemon stuff (I'm currently in a Pokemon frenzy right now). 

Okay, so exams kinda destroyed the mooncake festival in a way, so one of my friends say. Actually, the exam only just ruined the mood more, but he'd still say it's still the same, so I'll just let it slide. 

So I started a new sketchbook (the 7th since late 2009, to be precise) in mid August, and it was the biggest distraction (aside from my netbook) in my studies so far. What do I do?! I bring it to school moar often than I bring my 笔记本... I feel so guilty. I'm so dead in the JUEC trials. I could just crawl into a hole and die now. 

Next up is Pokemon!!! (Well excuse me for trying to kill time). I know most people say the new series, Black & White kinda sucks on design, and it's true, because I would only prefer to draw less than 10 of those Pokemon out of...155, and that's something. And for some reason, I find Dewott and Oshawott cute together. o___0 As in really close guardian-cutelittlekid cute. Yes, that's an intimate relationship, but they really look sweet together oA0~ 

Next up is Zekrom and Reshiram, the big representatives of Black & White. Reshiram looks like half lamb to me, and there's that weird tuft of fur coming out between its legs, which is quite disturbing, because it looks like it could be not-so-successfully hiding its genital parts. So yes, as usual I prefer Zekrom, the awesome ebil electric dragon!!! He's quite hard to draw though, which adds to the challenge x3!!! 

I'm a sucker for badassness. 

And quite proud of it. 

Okay, I have nothing left to declare for the day. See you soon if I survive October.